They Call Me Trouble🔫

Imy, 15 from the UK

I post things that could be considered triggering

“If you cut me open you won’t find constellations swirling under my skin.
You won’t find a galaxy resting on my tongue
Or fires waiting to ignite beneath my fingertips.

Instead of supernovas or forest fires
what you’ll find even before you break skin
will be the smell of axe and a flower garden.
You’ll find traces of the scents lingering on my hands and on my neck.
It’ll be smell of the girl who loves everyone and everything with a fierce passion, but doesn’t love herself at all.

Then the skin will break and the blood that I have spilt on the dark days full of gloom and despair and sunlight will flow freely from the body who knows a blade far too well.
The blood will flow and spell out my secrets on your white bed sheets before pooling.
Trust me when I tell you it’ll take months to wash out that crimson red.

You’ll see muscles in my arms and legs are worn out.
And that’ll be because they work tirelessly every single day to try and please everyone around me, but somehow wearing myself down, never seems to be good enough.

You’ll see how the ones in my fingers are worn out
And It’ll be from the poems that I stay up until 4am to write.
Because the depression that slowly eats away at my insides,
Will not let me sleep.

Then behind what looks like a cage
you will find the strongest muscle.
the one that will decide if it wants you to live or die.
A muscles whose only job is to keep your body functioning.
The muscle will be torn and worn.
it will be bruised and battered.
from all the wars it has waged
and all the trauma it has endured.
But even after all the muscle has been through;
Heartbreak, harsh words, and a bottle of pills,
That despite my best efforts to get it to stop
Somehow it still continues to beat.

And when you carve out the muscle and tissue eventually you’ll hit bones.
And on them you will see all the words ever thrown and spit at me, are carved into all of them.
You will be left wondering exactly how it is possible to bruise such a hard object.

So you won’t find a world on fire hidden behind my rib cage
You won’t see collapsed buildings or burnt out stars
And especially not and ocean of despair.
Because I’m not a vast emptiness of your so called beauty!
I am blood and muscle!
I am pain and scars!
I am a collective of all the battles I have fought and
All the wars I have yet to win.
I am not a girl your poetry can consume and construct
I am a girl born of blood and shit
I have survived things you can’t even begin to imagine!
But I am not a summers day, and I am not the moon or the stars
I am a person whose heart beats for the sole intention of keeping this body alive. and not to be the headline of your next poem.
I am a person made up of bone and tissue and scars and memories.
But one thing I am not,
is a metaphor.”

emocas:

when you hear a band member speak for the first time and it’s just like 

what

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Y.Z, a dying art (via rustyvoices)

(via sifirst-aid)

Forgive the trees
for the way they can’t stop shaking
even after all these years of practice.
Forgive yourself
for the days you don’t even want to try.

cocoastripper:

queer-punk:

WE NEED FEMINISM BECAUSE WHEN LANCE ARMSTRONG GOT CANCER AND LOST A TESTICLE IT WAS ALL ABOUT HIS HEALTH AND HOW INSPIRATIONAL HE WAS BUT WHEN ANGELINA JOLIE GETS A DOUBLE MASTECTOMY TO PREVENT HERSELF FROM GETTING CANCER, IT’S ALL ABOUT HOW SHE WON’T BE A SEX SYMBOL ANYMORE AND HOW MEN ARE OFFENDED CAUSE SHE WON’T BE AN OBJECT FOR THEM 

I’m pretty sure I reblog this already but this need to be reblog again

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spockward:

hey you wanna do a fun prank we can hold hands and cuddle and makeout and make everyone think we’re dating it will be so hilarious

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futurefantasticisdead:

that guy you just called sexist? he’s the CEO of a major corporation. that guy you just called racist? he’s a cop. wait hang on I’m seeing something here

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blackjackmothafucka:

This is the devil’s favorite post

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g2gfast:

today my little brother (hes six) put a seashell to his ear and told me the ocean said im a nerd

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